2014.

W A R N I N G

the following post is me kinda having a little pity party.

Well, we are ending 2013 on a very sour note. The house we thought was meant for us, was apparently not and that stings, a lot. We are now trying to pick ourselves up and move forward but that is so much easier said than done. The past few mornings I have woken up thinking “ok today is the last day I will be sad about this” but alas, the tears keep coming.

2013 has been a very trying year for Ryan and I and losing this house was just the cherry on top. It’s like every time we made a leap forward something catastrophic happened to push us three back! We have dealt with some serious rejection, betrayal from those we thought we could trust, and whole ton of car trouble!!!! Not to mention I think I’m having some sort of quarter life crisis, who am I , what do I want out of life, why didn’t I think of that?

I’m almost two years into this blog and like me, it still doesn’t seem to have any direction. The past year I made most of the posts to reflect Liam’s first year of life. I didn’t do a baby book for him so i’m glad I have these blog posts to cherish. Maybe one day I’ll get around to baby book but we will see.  This year I’m hoping to utilize this blog as more of an outpouring of my personal thoughts and feelings, while also sharing our memories. I have been feeling so out of touch with the world around me and that is probably because all I read last year was articles on babies. So on that note here is my 2014 New Year’s Resolutions.

1. Make time for God, even if it is only a few moments, everyday.

2. Read actual books that inspire thought and ambition.

3. Be a better friend. Remember birthdays, send mail, and be more thoughtful.

4.  Find a freaking hobby that’s just for me.

5. Wake up earlier. Go to bed later. Yes, you read that right.

6. Take advantage of living in Colorado. Bike, hike and be outside!!

7. Walk Huxley more! He is getting quite fat.

8. Get crafty with Liam. Let go of the fact that it will make a mess.

9. Stop playing the victim and taking things so personally. (You’re welcome Ryan)

10. Accept the fact that I’m a girl from the suburbs and will never be city cool.

11. Get a new website for ryan-dionna.com

12. Keep my drawers organized….. (let’s be real, this will probably not happen)

13. Take a portrait of Liam once a week for a year that captures his personality (got the idea from bleubirdvintage.typepad.com who did this with all four of her children)

14. Challenge, encourage and romanticize my husband.

15. Stop making rash decisions. Take the time to make the choices I know I will be happy with in the future.

After reflecting on this list, I just realized that I didn’t put much on their about being a mother. Maybe it’s because it is the one thing I feel like I do well. I know there is always room for improvement and maybe that sounds vain, but the little person that Liam is becoming is a reflection of me as a mother. I love who he is. I love giving that little boy my time, my attention and all my energy. He is worth it. So as he grows and changes I’m sure I will to. I will adapt to each new phase and appreciate this special time that he and I have together. The good Lord made me to be a mom and I love every second of it!

Alright 2014, let’s see what ya got?

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4 Comments

  1. Jen keefe

    Another great post.
    Thanks for sharing your inner thoughts

    I am so sorry about the house.
    The only thing I can say is keep tour heads up and I
    Know you have probably heard this a thousand time but……everything does happen for a reason.

    Your thoughts have inspired me to look at the way I live my life.
    To appreciate more, to get out and be active and figure out what I want.
    Keep the blogs coming.
    Happy New Year to you all.
    This will be your year!!

  2. Jenny P.

    Hello friend. I must say, I love your blog. Although this is the first time I have ever commented-I read it all the time :o) There are so many details and feelings of day to day life that are too soon forgotten, it’s great you take the time to capture them (good or bad.) One day (or even now) you’ll look back and see how far you’ve come and how much you had to go through just to get you there.

    Liam is very blessed to have such fun, creative, loving, dedicated, parents that are constantly celebrating his life! What you’ve done for him is better than a baby book could ever be! You could almost make him one of those flip books, starting from birth (which is quite impressive!)

    Your goals are great. I especially like/can relate to #2, 6, 9,…

    Love you guys, and I’ll say a special little prayer for your new house…wherever it is.