Knowing that in less than 16 hours I will be holding my brand new baby in my arms is just the most surreal feeling. It’s so hard to wrap my mind around. There is just no way to mentally prepare. I have been pretty nervous about surgery, more nervous about the spinal actually. My last spinal was a horrific experience that I do not want to relive ever again. I think once that is over I will be able to relax much more. I’m super grateful that given that his vitals are ok when he comes out I will be able to do skin to skin with him. I was unable to do that with Liam and it was something that I felt I really missed out on.
I’m honestly looking forward to not being pregnant anymore. I wish I could say I love it but I just don’t. I have accepted that. I grow big heavy babies and as a result it puts so much strain on my entire body and pretty much my state of mind. I cant wait to just be able to go on a walk again!
I have really been trying to soak up these last few days with just Liam. This little boy has captured my heart in a way I never thought possible. I’m so proud of the person he is. He is so excited to meet his baby brother. I cannot wait to see them together for the first time……just thinking about it fills my eyes with tears.
Ryan and I have spent so much time talking about this time and wondering how life will look. The one thing that we have agreed on is that no matter what we will continue to raise our new son in the manner we have raised Liam. With kindness and compassion for others and instill as many leadership qualities as we can. Can’t wait to have our missing puzzle piece finally here!
Thank you for all the prayers! We will keep you posted!
Here are some photos from 38 weeks 4 days.