For as long as I can remember, I have never been good at waiting. Patience is a virtue I know God has been trying to teach me for a long time! These last few weeks of pregnancy have probably been the most impatient time of my life! At least I can safely assume most women that are 36 weeks pregnant are getting a little impatient. There is so many emotions and hormones flying around it is sometimes hard to differ between reality and some logic that makes sense in your own crazy brain.
As a brief little McCarthy update, I finished my last day being a nanny, which was very bittersweet for me! Our basement is so close to being done…carpet goes in on Wednesday! We have been trying to squeeze in as many last minute nights out and dinners with friends for awhile. We are trying to catch up on some major blogging for Ryan + Dionna. Liam’s room is 95% finished (hope to get some pictures up soon) We are still on the hunt for a home church but honestly it is hard to find one that feels as right for us as New Life. Even though it is hour away from us we might just have to make it work somehow! I have definitely started nested big time!! I decided that all of our coats needed to be washed and I have organized our kitchen, hallway closets and bathrooms. Even scrubbed and shampooed the inside of our cars, with the help of my wonderful mother in law!
So in the midst of all the hectic chaos that is our lives right now, I realized over that last week that I was becoming very grouchy. It is very frustrating for me when my mind keeps going and my body can’t keep up. Taking frequent breaks while trying to get everything done just drives me nuts! I just want everything perfect and ready for this baby boy. While I have had a very easy pregnancy the physical toll of how big this boy is, truly is starting to affect my body. He is so heavy and so low, my back constantly aches with no relief ( I have tried everything) I’m experiencing major pelvic pressure to the point where it hurts to stand up let a lone walk. Everyday my Braxton Hicks contractions are becoming more frequent and much stronger. I have stopped sleeping. It just doesn’t happen! Everyone keeps telling me that they think he is going to come early but I’m trying to prepare myself if he doesn’t. So this might be a good source of where my grouchiness is coming from.
However, I decided I MUST shift my attitude to get through these next few weeks!! I refuse to be a grumpy pants! I want to remember and enjoy every minute of this, as painful and uncomfortable as it might be. Because soon, I will have to share this little boy with the world and for these next few weeks he is all mine!
That being said, I am so thankful for my husband. He works so hard for our family and has been so good at helping me with whatever it is that I need, both mentallly and physically! He has been so patient with me and I admire that patience all the time! I can’t imagine doing this without him!
So my Little Liam, I will patiently wait for you because I know you are going to be so worth it.