A big, no HUGE decision was made this week, between me, my husband and our doctor. Liam Michael McCarthy will enter this world on a disclosed date in November via cesarean section.
Regardless of the “estimated” weight we got this past week from the growth ultrasound (whopping 7lbs 10 oz.) there is no doubt about it that this boy is big! After a long conversation with our doctor we decided that a c-section is the best option for both Liam and I medically speaking. With my history of Crohn’s disease, they do not want me to rip or have to give me an episiotomy at all! Also, they dont want me to try and push for hours and hours putting Liam into stress and end up with an emergency c-section anyway. There was no pressure from our doctor, she said she usually prefers to deliver naturally but that she wouldn’t have brought up this option if she didn’t think is would be a good choice for us to make.
I felt relieved leaving the doctors office knowing that there is a planned light at the end of the tunnel. But as the day went on I started thinking if this was the right choice. More psychologically then anything else. I spent the afternoon with my brother who gave me some great insight when I asked him if he thought this option was a cop out. He said ” Why would you think that? You still carried him for nine months, you still took care of him for nine months, however he enters this world doesn’t make you any less a woman or mother.” Seriously profound wisdom for a 20 year old guy!! I also spoke with several close friends and family members who support us and this decision.
I think that only thing that has me upset is that I wont be able to hold him like I wanted to right away, but I know he will still be ready for me as soon as we are both fixed up and sent to the recovery room. He will still love me the same and know that I’m his momma!
We have decided to share the date with some close friends and family but for the most part we are going to keep his birthday under wraps for some sort of normal surprise!! And there is still a chance I could go into labor on my own. We will keep you posted!
The picture above was taken today. I am 36 weeks 5 days, currently measuring at 40 weeks!!!!!!! Boy, do I feel 40 weeks pregnant! It’s amazing how much strain your body can really take! I’m trying to really focus on resting which is so hard for me for some reason. But I have gotten to the point where my body just says no more so I try not to even cross the line, because frankly it just hurts.
Side note: Our house is finally put back together and our basement is done. I have some major decorating to do because I sold pretty much all of our stuff when we found out we were pregnant. Though, I know that is not a necessity right now. We’ll just call our house minimilist for the time being 🙂 I know I have been slacking in the photo department but hopefully now I can get some up! Both Ryan and I feel 100% better now our house is back in order.